Have You Ever Felt So Far Behind?
You look around at your family, friends, colleagues—even people in church—and see how blessed their lives seem. Year after year, you pray. But it still feels like nothing is happening. Nothing is ever going to happen.
Maybe it's finances that never seem to improve. Maybe you're still waiting for a life partner. Maybe it's the family you long for, the child you've prayed for, or the healing that hasn't come.
You feel left behind while everyone else moves forward.
If this is you, I want to share a story from Scripture that has brought me tremendous comfort—the story of Hannah in 1 Samuel. Because what looks like divine delay is often divine design.
The Story of Hannah: Grace in the Shadow of Fruitfulness
In the first chapter of Samuel, we see that Hannah’s husband, Elkanah, was a blessed man.
It was said that year after year, he went up from his town to worship and sacrifice to the Lord. These sacrifices are likely the peace offerings which are offered voluntarily to give thanks to the Lord for His goodness.
But there's a complication: Elkanah had two wives—Peninnah and Hannah. Understanding the meaning of Hannah in the Bible is crucial to this story. The meanings of their names are significant:
Peninnah means "fruitful" in Hebrew
Hannah means "grace" or "favor" in Hebrew—the Hannah origin comes from the Hebrew word "channah" (חַנָּה)
Elkanah means "God has acquired" or "God has created" (El = God, kanah = acquired/created)
And true to her name, Peninnah was extremely fruitful—she kept giving birth to children. But Hannah? The Bible records that "the Lord had closed her womb" (1 Samuel 1:5).
"And because the Lord had closed Hannah's womb, her rival kept provoking her in order to irritate her. This went on year after year. Whenever Hannah went up to the house of the Lord, her rival provoked her till she wept and would not eat."
Most likely, Elkanah went to offer sacrifices yearly to thank God for the children given through Peninnah.
But imagine this: Every single year, as they went to worship at Shiloh, Peninnah would spite Hannah. She would remind her of her barrenness, mock her inability to have children, and rub her fruitfulness in Hannah's face.
Year after year.
Hannah became so miserable that she refused to eat. Her husband loved her and tried to comfort her, asking, "Am I not better to you than ten sons?" (1 Samuel 1:8). But the ache remained.
Have you been there? Where well-meaning people try to comfort you, but the longing in your heart doesn't go away? Where you watch others receive the very thing you've been praying for?
Why Did God Close Hannah's Womb?
Here's what's remarkable: The Bible explicitly says "the Lord had closed her womb."
But why? Why would a good God withhold something so deeply desired from someone who loved Him?
The answer is found in understanding the spiritual crisis happening at that very moment in Israel's history.
Eli the priest and his sons
Before we get into why God closed up Hannah’s womb, we need to understand what was happening to the priesthood back then.
Look carefully at 1 Samuel 1:3:
"Year after year this man went up from his town to worship and sacrifice to the Lord Almighty at Shiloh, where Hophni and Phinehas, the two sons of Eli, were priests of the Lord."
The mention of Eli the priest and his sons isn't incidental, because Eli’s sons were wicked and showed contempt against the Lord.
1 Samuel 2:12-17 reveals their sins:
They treated the Lord's offering with contempt
They stole from the sacrifices that belonged to God
They took the fat portions reserved for the Lord
They intimidated worshipers with threats of violence
1 Samuel 2:22 reveals even worse:
"Now Eli, who was very old, heard about everything his sons were doing to all Israel and how they slept with the women who served at the entrance to the tent of meeting."
These men were committing sexual immorality in the house of God itself.
What Was the Sin of Eli the Priest?
And what did Eli, the high priest, do about his sons' wickedness?
Nothing.
This was the sin of Eli the priest—not that he committed these acts himself, but that he failed to stop them. He valued his sons above God.
1 Samuel 2:29 records God's indictment:
"Why do you honor your sons more than me by fattening yourselves on the choice parts of every offering made by my people Israel?"
What Happened to Eli in the Bible?
Because of this failure, God pronounced judgment on Eli's house:
1 Samuel 2:31-34:
"The time is coming when I will cut short your strength and the strength of your priestly house, so that no one in it will reach old age, and you will see distress in my dwelling... And what happens to your two sons, Hophni and Phinehas, will be a sign to you—they will both die on the same day."
This prophecy was fulfilled. Both of Eli's sons died in battle on the same day when the Ark of the Covenant was captured (1 Samuel 4:11). When Eli heard the news, he fell backward off his chair, broke his neck, and died (1 Samuel 4:18).
The priesthood was corrupt. And Eli himself was old, his eyes were growing dim (1 Samuel 3:2), and he even mistook Hannah's desperate prayer for drunkenness (1 Samuel 1:13-14).
The priesthood was dying, deaf, and blind. What happened to Eli in the Bible is representation of the weakness of the priesthood. They are either dying due to old age or corrupt- in this case it was both.
The severity of this is considered extremely great. It literally affects the whole Israelite’s sacrifices if the priest’s makes any mistakes and are not accepted by the Lord. So much that there was a ‘famine‘ in revelation from God until the Lord visited Samuel in chapter 3.
And that’s not the end of the judgement that fell on the wicked priesthood. They went on to battle the Philistines and lost, and even got the ark of the covenant captured.
Chapter 4 even records that 30 thousand Israelites soldiers died in the battle. So if the Ark of God gets captured- that is a huge huge issue! Verse 21 says “The glory has departed from Israel!”
This is why the Lord was so displeased and wanted a replacement.
Hannah's Prayer: When Desperation Meets Divine Purpose
One year, Hannah could take it no more. She went to Shiloh—which means "peace" or "until Shiloh comes" (a messianic reference)—and prayed bitterly before the Lord.
"In her deep anguish Hannah prayed to the Lord, weeping bitterly. And she made a vow, saying, 'Lord Almighty, if you will only look on your servant's misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a son, then I will give him to the Lord for all the days of his life, and no razor will ever be used on his head.'"
Notice what Hannah did: She offered her unborn child back to God for the priesthood.
This wasn't just a prayer for personal fulfillment. This was a prayer aligned with God's purposes. Hannah was willing to surrender the very thing she longed for to serve God's greater plan.

Hannah praying bitterly while Eli was watching her
God heard her and remembered her.
"Early the next morning they arose and worshiped before the Lord and then went back to their home at Ramah. Elkanah made love to his wife Hannah, and the Lord remembered her. So in the course of time Hannah became pregnant and gave birth to a son. She named him Samuel, saying, 'Because I asked the Lord for him.'"
The word ‘remembered‘ in Hebrew is "zakar" (זָכַר)—and it's far more powerful than our English word.
What does "zakar" mean in Hebrew?
Zakar doesn't mean God forgot Hannah and then suddenly recalled her. Rather, zakar means:
To call to mind with intention to act
To be mindful of someone with covenant faithfulness
To move decisively on behalf of someone
To intervene with purposeful action
When the Bible says God "remembered" (zakar) someone, it means God is now acting on their behalf in accordance with His covenant promises.
We see this word used throughout Scripture:
Genesis 8:1 - "God remembered Noah" → God sent wind to recede the flood waters
Genesis 19:29 - "God remembered Abraham" → God rescued Lot from Sodom's destruction
Genesis 30:22 - "God remembered Rachel" → God opened her womb
Exodus 2:24 - "God remembered His covenant" → God began Israel's deliverance from Egypt
God Was Always Aware of Hannah
So when we read that "the Lord remembered Hannah," it doesn't mean God forgot about her prayers during those years of barrenness.
It means: At the appointed time, God moved decisively to fulfill His purposes through her.
God was always aware of Hannah. He was always working on her behalf. He heard every prayer, saw every tear, felt every ache of her heart. But He was waiting for the precise moment when her personal breakthrough would align with His redemptive plan for Israel.
And at that perfect moment, He acted.
The same God who "remembered" (zakar) Hannah remembers you.
Why God closed up Hannah’s womb?
Why did God answer Hannah's prayer now, after years of waiting?
Because the timing was finally right.
God in all this time was waiting for someone who would dedicate their child to God to replace the corrupt priesthood who honoured his sons more than the Lord.
Samuel as we know later on, became God's answer to Israel's spiritual crisis.
He went on to become:
The prophet who would anoint kings
The judge who would lead Israel back to God
The priest who would restore proper worship
The transitional figure between the age of judges and the age of kings
God's delay in Hannah's life was preparation for His divine appointment in Israel's history.
God Honors Those Who Honor Him
God did not just end it at Samuel for Hannah. Because later on we read that:
"And the Lord was gracious to Hannah; she gave birth to three more sons and two daughters. Meanwhile, the boy Samuel grew up in the presence of the Lord."
Five more children! Three sons and two daughters—the number five representing grace in Scripture.
Hannah, whose name means "grace," received overwhelming grace from the God she honored!

Hannah was blessed with 5 more children
Here's the beautiful pattern we see throughout Scripture: God chooses the weak things of the world to accomplish His purposes, and He honors those who honor Him.
Just as Hannah offered her unborn child to the Lord, Solomon asked for wisdom to lead Israel rightly—and God blessed him abundantly.
Just as Hannah surrendered what she desired most, God gave her far more than she asked for!
I hope this encourages you to keep on trusting in God’s goodness. Your prayers aren't lost in the void. Your tears aren't wasted. Your waiting isn't meaningless. God is being mindful of you with covenant faithfulness, and at the appointed time, He will act decisively on your behalf.
God shows His grace to those who haven't seemed to have normal circumstances in their lives. He is faithful to bring about His promises and show even greater works.
Keep praying. Keep trusting. Keep honoring God with your life—even in the waiting.
Prayer:
Lord, like Hannah, I bring my anguish and my longing before You. I confess that sometimes the wait feels unbearable. Help me trust that Your delays are not denials, that You see every tear, and that You are working for my good and Your glory. Give me the faith to surrender my desires to You, knowing that You give abundantly beyond what we ask or imagine. I choose to honor You, even in this season of waiting. In Jesus' name, Amen.
